From Seven
Captain,
I feel it necessary to explain my actions regarding the Commander. It is not
my wish to undermine your authority or feelings in any way.
You may be aware of the affinity I posses for you. If you are not, then you
are now. However, either way, it is paramount that you know precisely in
what regard I hold you.
Despite my outward appearance at times, I am willing to do all you ask of me
and more. I wish nothing more than to please you at every possible
opportunity. The only thing that causes me any true discomfort is the
knowledge that I may have displeased you in some way.
You have given to me the one item that, even though I am no longer part of
the collective, I could not have possibly regained without your guidance.
You have given me my humanity back. With every decision you have made for
and about me, you have pushed me to further understand who and what I truly
am.
Your persistence and encouragement to try and understand my emotions has not
gone unnoticed. It has taken me some time, but I realize now why you were so
intent that I understand them and learn to handle them appropriately.
I have discussed you with the Doctor on many occasions. It is my hope that
you are not upset by this fact, but I was confused and needed some advice.
Since he is under Doctor/patient confidently and I could erase his memory if
necessary, I discussed my confusion with him.
He says that I am in love with you. At first, I found this difficult to
understand or believe, but I now know this to be true. My loyalty and
devotion are stronger for you than any I held for the collective. As you
know, I would give my life and my individuality simply to guarantee your
safety and the safety of this crew, which you hold in such high regard. I
realize now that all that I have done is simply for you.
I believe I could contently continue on with my life such as I have done
since you severed my link with the collective if I had not encounter
Unimatrix Zero. I know what love is like and wish to experience it again. I
do love you, Captain, but I know it is a love that you cannot return because
of protocol and, perhaps, the Commander.
Therefore, the Commander and I have engaged in a courtship, of sorts. We
both are lacking something of which the other understands and can sympathize
with. As a result, we have become considerably closer than either of us
thought possible. I do not believe he loves me in the same way he does you,
but, in reverse, I do not love him in the same way I do you. We are aware of
the other's feelings.
I am sending this information to you in the hopes that you will understand
why we are as we are. I do not want to appear cold to you in anyway, but, if
the case should arise, know that it is because I am trying to distance
myself from you.
It is difficult to have a relationship with an individual whom you know
loves another, but it is even more so if that person loves the same
individual as yourself. We will both, more than likely, distance ourselves
from you.
However, it is my sincerest wish that you know that I will always do all you
ask of me and more, and, still the only thing that would ever cause me any
discomfort is the knowledge that I have displeased you in some way.
I will always have a strong affinity for you.
Seven of Nine