~The Struggle~

Kathryn struggled against the firm grip of Seven's arms. Not once in her wildest fantasies had she ever envisioned her first sexual encounter with Seven to be like this. She has always imagined herself taking the lead. Her being older and more experienced. But Seven was quickly taking charge of the situation as only a former Borg drone could do.

It had all started so suddenly, Kathryn felt her head spinning in circles. But according to the rest of her crew, her courtship with Seven had been quite long. It was the first official dinner date she and Seven went on. Luckily, she had decided it best to fix Seven something to eat in her quarters where they could be alone. Kathryn had felt all eyes on them when she went to the astrometrics lab to meet Seven. As they walked to her quarters she could swear everyone in the corridors they passed had stopped to stare. Later, the following day she found there had been an ongoing bet through most of Voyager's crew to see how late Seven would stay that night. Kathryn, of course had been furious and dressed down the entire senior staff at their next meeting. The whole incident had made her rethink her decision to date Seven at all.

Actually, now that she thought about it, if it wasn't for the Doctor she and Seven probably wouldn't be here at all right now. He had been their biggest supporter. Several long months ago he was the only one with enough nerve to confront Kathryn. When it became public gossip that Seven was engaging in sexual relations Kathryn became jealous for reasons she didn't want to think about. In fact, Kathryn full on started to ignore Seven when she discovered her Borg Drone had taken to participating in lesbian activities. She was furious and she ended up taking it out on most of the crew. People cut her a wide berth as she stormed through Voyager. For Seven all she gave was acute passive aggressiveness.

In the beginning Seven had tried to ascertain why her former friend was so cold towards her. But Kathryn continued to cut her off at the knees quickly biting that, "nothing's wrong Seven." When everyone could tell that was far from true. It was the Doctor who invaded her quarters late one night and confronted her. She demanded, ordered and pleaded with him to leave. But he wouldn't, not until he said his peace. Finally, she gave in and let him talk. She wasn't ready to hear that the whole crew knew she had feelings for Seven and was carrying on like a jealous lover. Kathryn became livid and the Doctor quickly left.

It had been a strange week. A week of her denying his accusations and then seeking the Doctor's counsel. How many protocols would she be breaking if she did tell Seven how she felt? And did it matter? Seven couldn't possibly feel the same way about her, did she? The doctor, gently and kindly met all of her concerns. And with his encouragement she finally sought Seven out.

On the short trip to Seven's quarters she nearly talked herself out of her task five different times. But in the end she went through with it. But when Seven gave her permission to entrance and when she finally stood face to face with the attractive Borg she nearly let all of her resolve go. Seven was anything but friendly, why should she be? Kathryn had done nothing but push her away for months. And now here she was; looking at the woman she loved very deeply. And it had done nothing but tear her heart out to hear the rumors of Seven and her other female lovers. Seven gave her nothing but an icy stare and Kathryn knew she wasn't going to let this be easy. When she thought of how foolish she'd been she surprised herself with her immediate emotional response. Seven was taken aback too when Kathryn found herself crying softly. Eventually, Seven comforted her and let her very embarrassed Captain rest against her larger frame. Through large water filled tears Kathryn apologized for her behavior and finally confessed to her jealousy. When Seven didn't say anything in response Kathryn feared the worst. But when she finally looked up into Seven's deep blue eyes her lips were captured quickly in a kiss. Seven's lips were full and thick as they massaged Kathryn's. The Captain, pleasantly surprised let the drone take the lead. Kathryn was already firmly locked in Seven's arms. She felt Seven's tongue enter her mouth and she gave no resistance. The invasion turned from a gentle exploration to one of passionate conquer. Kathryn felt Seven shifting her weight to lay atop her. Things were getting out of control very quickly. Kathryn wanted to stop, this is not how she felt their first time together should be. She gently pushed at Seven's arms and resisted her attempt to move Kathryn onto her back. After several moments of a silent quarrel, Seven relented.

"Seven, I don't think we should do this now." Kathryn had said through tear stained eyes and a strained voice.

"Why?" Seven spoke with her normal lack of inflection. The real reason was the intense vulnerability Kathryn was feeling at the moment. Seven had just seen her cry and heard her bare her soul. She felt very weak huddled against Seven's body as she confessed all her secrets. Making love to Seven now would leave her feeling submissive. And that's not how she did things. She needed to be in control, especially in bed. Kathryn gave her some song and dance about doing things "right." Having a nice dinner, an entire romantic evening in fact was what they needed. She didn't want to do things like this.

Eventually Seven acquiesced and allowed Kathryn to leave. But now they had a date, a real date scheduled for the following evening and the butterflies were already dancing about in the Captains stomach. Her own nervousness had precluded a sexual encounter on the first date. She was too conscious of what other people would think if Seven spent the night. On their second date they had been interrupted by an emergency on the bridge. And now on their third date Kathryn was quickly being mounted by her subordinate.

The evening had started off as all the others. Soft candlelight, delicious food, and soft music had all given way to an undeniable sexual tension in the air. Kathryn had decided that tonight, barring an other absolute emergency, she and Seven would finally consummate their feelings. Throughout the entire dinner Seven had remained confident and aloof. But Kathryn was sure she could crack her exterior. She felt that deep inside her altered Borg exterior, Seven desired her just as much as she ached for Seven.

It was when she had gotten up to remove the dinner dishes that control had quickly been taken away from her. Seven had come up behind her and captured her waist in a loving embrace. Kathryn relaxed into it enjoying the affection. Seven had allowed her tongue and lips to journey across Kathryn's ear and neck. Kathryn relished the affection feeling jolts of electricity to travel up and down her spine. Seven pulled Kathryn's neck even further to the side. She placed her hand up against Kathryn's mouth and was rewarded with a very soft suckling. Her Borg hand traveled the exposed length of the captain's neck with a whisper soft touch. Kathryn felt her body respond immediately as she moved further back into Seven.

Before Kathryn could get her bearings Seven had pushed her into the bedroom. Kathryn landed on top of her bed with Seven quickly following. After Seven lied down completely on her, Kathryn felt her own strength weaken. She felt Seven positioning the weight of her body very carefully. And then Seven finally kissed her. It was more passionate and demanding then before. She felt Seven coil in a large ball of sexual tension that was about to be unleashed on her. She found her wrists had been firmly held to the mattress by Seven's hand. It was only then that she started struggling.

Kathryn didn't want to be dominated. She wanted to make love to Seven, not the other way around. After Seven's tongue had retreated from her mouth, all her control was lost. Seven made quick work of removing her own clothes. Then Kathryn felt her own uniform being lost. It was then she realized she was in trouble. Part of her wanted to give into to Seven and let her be in charge. But another part of her still resisted. Seven's mouth was ruthless as she licked and sucked Kathryn's breasts into ripeness. She was so lost in the pleasure of her own body she didn't even realize Seven's state for several minutes. It was only after she heard a soft growl escape Seven's throat did she realize that Seven had been firmly rocking herself against her thigh. Kathryn wanted to sink her hands into the softness of her lover's breasts. But she found herself still held firmly against the bed. Kathryn found herself further immobilized as Seven traveled down the length of her body. Her thighs were suddenly locked into a vice grip as she felt Seven's tongue lick the core of her wetness. With her free hands she latched onto Seven's hair. She begged and pleaded, for what she wasn't sure. She felt her stomach knot and an orgasm take control of all the little nerves in her body. When she finally opened her eyes she found herself being held in Seven's arms. Kathryn realized how much they loved each other. She allowed Seven to hold her firmly as they exchanged soft and gentle kisses. And she didn't even mind the small feeling of submission when Seven placed a protective arm around her waist as they slept.