I was sitting behind the desk in my ready room. I couldn’t concentrate on the files at my desk. For many times I tried to read the tactical and engineering reports. I had to finish them before the senior-staff meeting at 11.00 hours.
While sipping my fourth cup of coffee (it was only 10 am), I could only think of my dream that night. Usually, the memory of a dream didn’t stay with me that long. But this one was different. I could not remember every detail, but the feelings were still very strong. I only had to close my eyes.....

I was in my bed looking at the stars. I couln’t sleep.
Suddenly I felt that someone was watching me. It was you.
(If it were not a dream, you would never have gotten into my quarters unanounced).
I asked you why you were there. You told me you had to tell me that you love me. I didn’t know how to react…

I was in love with you too, but I could not tell you that. How your presence in my mind kept me awake almost every night. How I thought about you during staff meetings, your beautiful face, the metallic eyepiece over your left brow and the star-shaped implant under your right ear. How those implants only enhanced your beauty. How your body made me think things I should not think, those legs, those breasts...
What I would do to you if I ever had the chance. But I could never do that. What I wanted you to do to me. But I could never tell you that. I am your captain, your mentor...

I stared at you, eyes wide, didn’t know what to do. About a hundred reasons why you had to go right then were in my head. But none of them seemed to make it’s way to my mouth.
You did.
You sat down next to me, You noticed I started to panic.
You took my hands in yours and told me not to be affraid.
You leaned forward and kissed me.
As your lips touched mine, all my fears disappeared. As our kiss deepened, I could only think of the feelings that accompanied the moment of you and me together, doing just that what I had thought and dreamed about for so long.
I gave myself completely to you. We made love, over and over again. It was the most wonderful dream I ever had. It seemed all so real. It still does. I only had to close my eyes.
I woke up with feelings of complete satisfaction.
What a dream!

At the senior-staff meeting at I could not concentrate on Tuvok’s tactical report, B’Elanna’s engineering report and Neelix’s babbling on god knows what. All I could think about was my dream.
And you being in the same room at the same table only made is worse. If you only knew what I was thinking.
I was glad the meeting was over and everyone left the room to go back to their duty’s. I went to my ready-room to continue what I was doing before the meeting.
I was already sitting at my desk, when I noticed you had followed me in there.
I paniced. What would I do? Why were you here?
You just stood there and smiled.

"Did you get any sleep after I left, Captain"…

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