Blind Desire
“Chakotay
to Seven of Nine!” chirped Seven’s combadge as she stood behind the giant view
screen in Astrometrics planning out the next couple systems they would travel
through.
“Seven
here.” She responded without taking her eyes from the screen.
“Seven,
would you please come to the ready room,” he commanded indicating nothing by his
tone.
“Yes
Commander,” she responded, “on my way.” She turned from the screen and walked
out of Astrometrics.
A few
minutes later Chakotay rose as Seven of Nine walked into the Captain’s ready
room. “Seven!” He smiled, “Please sit.” He motioned toward the chair opposite
him.
“I would
prefer to stand.” She answered as she stood before him with her hands clasped
behind her back.
“Alright.” He answered as he sat back down in the Captain’s chair. “Seven, “
Chakotay sighed as he leaned forward in his chair rubbing his hands together.
“You are aware that the Captain is having some difficulty adjusting from her
accident.” He spoke solemnly.
“I am
aware,” Seven responded nodding her head.
“I would
like you to assist the Captain in making a smoother transition regarding this
situation.”
“Explain.” Seven requested evenly.
“To be quite honest with you no one else has been able to help
her. Tuvok has gotten nowhere. The doctor, as well as Neelix, have gotten them
selves barred from her quarters, B’Elanna no longer has the patience and I –“
“Cannot
handle her either.” Seven finished for him raising her implant-covered brow
with a small smirk.
He smiled
and leaned back with a sigh. “No, I’m afraid I can’t seem to get through to her
either.”
“And you
feel that I can help her to – adapt?” Seven questioned incredulously.
“Quite
frankly I feel I don’t have a lot of other choices.” He sighed again with a
look of concern written across his face.
“I do not
know what I could do to help the Captain, Commander. I know nothing of being
blind.”
“Neither
did the rest of us, Seven. Mostly we tried to be there to assist her when she
needed assistance and tried to listen when she needed someone to listen. None
of which she wanted. Perhaps because she helped you when you were first severed
from the Borg Collective. Maybe you could do the same for her,” he explained.
“I do not
believe that the Captain will allow me anymore opportunity than she has the rest
of her senior staff.” Seven surmised.
“You will
need to give it your best shot, Seven.” Chakotay informed her wryly.
“Is that
an order, Commander?” Seven questioned hearing his tone.
“Yes, I’m
afraid it is.” He answered now with a slight smile playing across his face.
She
looked at him for several seconds longer than normal weighing her options or
lack there of, then replied, “I shall comply.”
“I knew
that you would. You start immediately,” he responded as he stood.
She nodded her
head in acknowledgement then walked to the ready room door as it hissed open he
called after her, “Seven – you’re dismissed. And good luck!”
As the
door hissed closed behind her, she could have sworn she heard him laughing. She
stopped for a minute to place it in her eidetic memory to question the commander
about it later, and as she walked from the bridge she noticed that no eyes met
hers. Everybody appeared to be smirking for some odd reason purposely not
making eye contact. This too she would question later she thought to herself as
she entered the turbolift and requested deck 3.
A month
before Captain Kathryn Janeway had been assisting ship’s engineering as she had
been known to do from time to time; she was working in a jeffries tube when a
power conduit had erupted and sent her flying, slamming her head into a
bulkhead. She had been knocked unconscious for a period of time before she was
discovered. The ship’s Emergency Medical Hologram had worked on her for hours
doing all that he could. It was not until she awoke the next day that they
discovered she had lost her sight. Finding nothing amiss, the EMH ruled it
hysterical blindness and informed her that in time her sight would eventually
return. In the mean time Chakotay had temporarily taken over her command and
Kathryn Janeway had sealed herself away in her quarters rebuking any and all
assistance from her crew. She had taken refuse in her bedroom and had remained
there sinking daily into a depression. Depressions were familiar for this
Captain. They had been part of her experience before. Once when her father and
her then to-be-husband, Justin Tighe, had died serving Star Fleet and then again
when Voyager had entered a void in space not all that long ago.
Today
Kathryn Janeway lay in her bed rubbing the bridge of her nose. Her head ached
and it was keeping her from finding solace in her much needed sleep. Oh how she
longed for sleep. It was the one place she found comfort. And as she lay
wishing for relief she heard the door chime. Knowing it would only be one of
her crew she ignored it. They have duties to tend to on this ship, why are they
here to bother me. She thought to herself and the door chimed again. She
rolled over and buried her head between pillows blocking out the irritating
noise.
After the
second try and receiving no response Seven entered the Captain’s quarters. It
was dark and the air stagnant. She sensed no one in the living area and moved
toward the sleeping room. She knew as she entered this area that the Captain
was there. Her night vision allowed her to see and she could sense the
Captain’s respiration. She is not asleep Seven thought to herself then ordered,
“Lights up full!” And she proceeded to the Captain’s bed where she removed the
pillow from over her head. “Captain.” Seven questioned, “Why are you here in
bed it’s the middle of the day?”
“Because
I can.” Captain Kathryn Janeway growled at Seven, “Now get out!”
“I
apologize, Captain, but I cannot comply.” Seven spoke without reaction.
“Then why
pray tell are you here?” Janeway asked extremely annoyed looking into the
blackness that lay before her.
“I am
here to assist you,” Seven answered now standing with her hands clasped behind
her back.
“Like all
those who have come before you?” Janeway gnarled. “ I guess it’s your turn,
huh?”
“Yes,”
Seven replied unwavering.
“If you must
assist me, hand me my pillow back and then GET - OUT!” Janeway barked.
To Seven the
Captain resembled an angry Teheran dog, one that required a bath, grooming and a
meal. I will require a talk with the commander when I have finished here today
Seven thought to herself. Then with a deep breath she reached over, grabbed
Captain Kathryn Janeway, picked her up, thank the Gods for Borg strength, and
carried her to the ensuite where she turned on the cold water, then stood the
frantic screaming captain in the shower. “You can’t just leave me here!”
Janeway yelled as Seven left the ensuite.
Seven
turned to reply, “I can and I will. The soap is to your right at 4 o’clock,
please use it.” And with that she left her alone in her miserable darkness.
Seven hoped that the Captain remembered the old earth time measures.
Kathryn
Janeway stood in the ice-cold water trembling. This is crazy, she thought, I
just want to be left alone. Why will they not leave me be? No one can possibly
understand what I am feeling. And the ice-cold water beat against her until it
became painful chilling her to the bone. 4 o’clock – 4 o’clock her mind clicked
with self-preservation and she felt her way as she trembled. 4 o’clock, yes
here it is, but the water is so c-cold. I cannot stay in this cold water she
thought again as she felt the shower walls for the hot and cold gauges. Where
are they – where –here! Which one – which one is hot, ahh, this one, yes this
one is hot she thought to herself as the water started to warm up. And as she
started to wash herself the darkness within her lightened if only a tiny bit.
All as the darkness she faced slipped from her mind for the moment.
Seven
removed the dirty sheets from the bed, but did not replace them. She did not
want the Captain to find comfort back in her bed. She took the stack of clean
sheets and moved them up to a higher shelf in the linen closet. She would
assist the Captain in making the bed later, much later. Then she headed out to
the living area where she brought up the lights, picked up scattered padds and
coffee cups, then ran the air cleaner. Already it started to feel as though it
were the Captain’s quarters again. She then replicated two bowls of chicken
soup and a small loaf of sweet brown bread. After placing their meal on the
small dining table she headed back to the ensuite. “Captain.” She spoke
startling Janeway, “Are you clean?”
“Gods
Seven!” Janeway jumped covering her now naked self, “Can’t a person have their
privacy?”
“I am
sorry, Captain for startling you. No, you cannot have privacy if I am to assist
you,” Seven answered reaching in to turn off the water then handed her a
towel. “Please dry yourself. I have made you a nutritional supplement.”
“I’m not
hungry.” Janeway spoke with mild aggravation.
“It does
not matter if you are hungry or not. You are required to maintain your health,”
Seven encouraged stepping away giving her some room. “Your hairbrush is to the
right of the sink at 2 o’clock and your tooth brush is to the left at 10. I
will wait for you in your sleeping area.” And she left Janeway again to work it
out on her own. While she waited she checked the Captain’s closet for suitable
attire and decided that a robe would suffice for now. I will get her dressed
and out of her quarters today before I leave, she thought to herself as she laid
the robe on the bed and waited.
Ten
minutes passed before Janeway spoke from the bathroom. “Seven of Nine, could
you give me a hand?”
Seven did
not move, but replied, “Captain. It is four steps to the door between the
bathroom and your bedroom. Then it is another four steps to your bed. I
believe you can navigate that space without incurring any problems.”
“Seven,
could you, please, just give me a hand?” The Captain repeated in a frustrated
voice.
“I
believe that is what I am attempting to do, if you would just comply,” Seven
replied still not moving, but keeping an eye on her.
Knowing
that the ex-borg was not going to accommodate her, Janeway sighed in total
aggravation as she felt for the wall and paced her way out of the bathroom
stopping when she felt Seven’s hand on her arm. “Have I gone to far?” She
questioned surprised.
“No, you
are standing right next to the foot of your bed. You need merely take the robe
that I have lain out for you there and put it on. Then we shall go eat.” Seven
answered letting her go then stepping back. “Your skills as a blind person are
most remarkable, Captain.”
“I am
blind, Seven, in case you haven’t noticed.” The Captain replied bitterly.
“No
Captain, you are not blind. You are injured and you – will – heal in time.”
Seven retorted as she reached out and took hold of Janeway’s arm to escort her
out to the small dining table.
For the
most part they ate their meal in silence. Seven watched as Janeway made the
attempt of buttering her bread but became frustrated once she had smeared butter
on her fingers. Janeway threw the knife across the room, and then heaved her
bowl off the table. She lowered her head and shook it in exasperation. “I
cannot continue to live this way.” Janeway spoke softly as the depression began
to pulse through her.
“Self pity is
not becoming to you, Captain,” Seven answered as she walked across the room to
retrieve the knife.
Janeway
jerked up looking in the direction of Seven of Nine with contempt written over
her face. “How dare you!” She hissed.
“Was my
assessment incorrect?” Seven answered puzzled. “Are you not feeling sorry for
your self?”
“Your are
wrong!” Janeway barked, “I do not feel sorry for myself.”
After
placing the knife and bowl in the recycler Seven walked back to Janeway’s side.
“If not
pity then what?” Seven continued to question.
Janeway
reached up to massage the bridge of her nose wishing her headache would go away
she responded tersely, “I am angry! And I’m especially tired of everyone
bothering me about it.”
“Captain,
your crew would do what ever necessary to insure a proper recovery on your
behalf. However, you seem to alienate those who care most about you with your –
anger,” Seven spoke. “I imagine it hard being a victim of circumstance.”
It was
hard for Janeway to concentrate. She did not want to listen to Seven of Nine.
It had become difficult to fit the pieces together and understand how she felt.
Perhaps there was an element of pity within her, but mostly it was anger she was
feeling. And here she knew standing before her the ex-borg drone barely
understood her own life, or her own humanity and still she was trying to find a
way to reach her, the Captain. I am the Captain she thought again. I need to
be strong, but how? She questioned herself. It was all so confusing. Her life
had become a cloudy gray day and she looked toward her sky with a frown hating
where she had found herself. She was a victim and she dislike that very much.
“You have
some accountability in your circumstance, Captain. It is that simple. You need
simply forgive yourself for having been in the wrong place at the wrong time.”
Seven interjected.
“That’s
easy for you to say,” Janeway responded not choosing to let go of her anger.
“Captain,” Seven spoke, knowing a different approach was warranted. “Perhaps if
we went for a walk.”
“I am not
going to be paraded around this ship like some kind of animal!” Janeway
snapped.
“Captain. I will not allow you to remain in your quarters,” Seven stated.
And
Janeway laughed at that, “How can you stop me?” She growled.
“If I
cannot get you to walk on your own two feet. I shall carry you,” Seven replied
evenly.
“You
would do no such thing,” Janeway bit back.
“I am
here to assist you, Captain. I am here to help you adapt. I shall - carry you
around this ship if necessary,” Seven confirmed.
Somehow
Captain Kathryn Janeway did not want to find out whether Seven would do as
threatened. She rose from her chair and pushed it in. “Well – let’s get going
then.” She sighed. This was one lesson she would not learn the hard way.
“Captain.” Seven spoke up, “Would you not be more comfortable in proper
attire?”
This
stopped Janeway. Seven walked to her and took her arm. “I guess the robe
wouldn’t do would it?” Janeway made a slight attempt at humor as she walked to
her bedroom to get dressed.
With her
head still throbbing slightly she no longer wanted to argue. Possibly
bargaining would work better. “If I go for this walk will you then leave me
alone?”
“I have
duties to finish before end of my shift. I will leave you unassisted until I
have completed these tasks,” Seven conceded. “After our walk.”
They had
walked several decks on the ship. Crewmembers stopped from time to time asking
the Captain how she was doing and when she would be back on the bridge. It took
all the strength Kathryn Janeway had to endure this, but she did manage. She
hated having the crew see her in this helpless state. When they arrived back at
her quarters she found herself exhausted from the little bit of physical
activity they had just accomplished. Seven left her on the sofa along with a
cup of coffee and several audio padds that contained a couple harlequin books
Janeway seemed to enjoy.
“I will
return at the end of my duty shift,” Seven informed as she started to step
through the door.
“Take all the
time you need Seven,” Janeway answered as she sipped her coffee, hearing the
door hiss closed. Finally, she thought to herself I can go back to sleep, but
the sleep she had so desperately longed for a few hours ago eluded her now. She
recognized that she was physically tired, but her mind had cleared. The walk
had done her a world of good although she would keep this fact to herself. She
thought of her morning with Seven of Nine so far the only one to have gotten
beyond her some how. Of course why wouldn’t she, resistance was futile to her
Janeway chuckled to herself with that thought. She had allowed this person more
latitude than any that had come before her. Her anger also had waned vaguely
allowing her to think somewhat more clearly. She was now able to see somewhat
that the others had only meant well. They had tried to give her what they felt
she needed and she had rejected them, even barred them from her quarters.
Oh Katie you can be so pompous when you chose,
she thought feeling quite dreadful and realizing the need for many
apologies. However Seven had not yielded to her. She found this thought in an
odd way exceedingly tantalizing.
Her mind
drifted to other issues she seldom gave credence. Her thoughts regarding Seven
of Nine had been taking on a different hue. A smile played on her face as she
considered how this woman always found a way to incite her, to get on her last
nerve. There was no one else on this ship that could anger her to the extreme
Seven could by merely challenging her command. From the beginning Seven had
never a use for the command structure that Star Fleet imposed or she herself had
in place aboard Voyager. No one else aboard her ship would she allow to
challenge her quite in the same as Seven. Why was that and how did it come
about? She questioned herself. Why did she allow Seven more latitude than
anyone else? Because she had been Borg for 18 years of her life, ripped from
her humanness at such a young age? Because she had severed her from the Borg
Collective and was attempting to give her back her humanity? Because the woman
six foot tall in stature, blonde hair, pouty lips and the most beautiful ice
blue eyes could draw this Captain in without the slightest idea? She allowed
this woman latitude because she permitted her own self this indulgence.
Indulgence, she laughed to herself was
not a strong enough word. It was more than that she was sure. Desire floated
threw her. Captain Kathryn Janeway shook her head as though the thought she was
now having was not permissible. What are you doing Katie, she thought,
this is one of your crew you’re thinking about in this way. But she
couldn’t help herself, just as she could not help this blindness. Hmm,
she thought, recognizing that her spirits had brightened a little. As Kathryn
Janeway picked up a padd containing one of her beloved stories, she also found
herself longing for the ex-borg’s return.
Seven
made her way to the bridge. As she exited the turbolift Tuvok raised his
eyebrow. “Lieutenant Commander.” She acknowledged him, but kept moving until
she stood in front of Chakotay. “Commander, could we speak in private?” she
asked almost commandingly.
Chakotay
looked up at Seven, “How is she today?” He inquired.
“She is
fine, in private please?” she again asked. With this he stood and they walked
to the Captain’s ready room. Once in side he sat and she as usual stood.
“Commander.
Captain Janeway has been cleaned up, given a nutritional supplement and has
participated in a short physical activity. I have several duties that need to
be addressed in Astrometrics and would like to attend to these while the Captain
rests.” Seven informed.
“You got
her to eat?” Chakotay responded with a surprised look on her face.
“Yes,
approximate 120 milliliters of soup before she threw the bowl on the floor of
her quarters.”
“She
threw the bowl?” He grinned in astonishment, and then his face grew serious.
“But how is she, really?” he asked gravely
“As I
said, she is fine. She is extremely argumentative and pities her condition,”
Seven answered.
“What was
the short physical activity?” Chakotay questioned.
“We went
for a walk on decks 3, 7 and 9. I attempted one more deck, but she started to
grow irritable.” Seven responded, “And I felt it best we return to her quarters
before I she needed carrying.”
“You
actually got her out of her quarters.” Chakotay was thoroughly amazed. “How did
you manage that?”
“I
informed the Captain that she either walk or be carried.” Seven smirked.
Chakotay
laughed as he massaged his tattoo-covered brow. “Well, it appears you are
assisting the Captain in quite a capable manner,” he allowed.
“I find
the task at hand extremely aggravating, but will not fail,” Seven spoke.
“Keep me
informed,” Chakotay answered. “You may finish up your shift in Astrometrics.”
“Thank
you.” Seven said, “Am I dismissed?”
“Yes and
Seven.” He spoke, “Keep up the good work”
“Aye –
Aye, Commander.” She responded as she left the ready room. Three hours later
she finished her shift, stopped in the cargo bay to enter information into her
workstation there, then headed for deck 3 and the Captain’s quarters once
again. She hoped the rest of the day would go a little better than how it had
started with the Captain.
When the
door to her quarter’s hissed open Janeway looked up. “Seven?” she questioned.
“Yes
Captain,” Seven responded pleased to see the Captain awake and still in her
living area where she had left her. She was especially happy to see the small
smile her Captain’s face contained. “How was your afternoon?”
“Uneventful,” Janeway replied without a hint of the earlier anger.
Odd,
Seven thought as she walked to the sofa where the Captain now lounged. She had
tilted her head ever so slightly so that her optical implant could observe the
Captain more closely finding the change in her attitude questionable. And
Janeway knowing Seven as well as she did also knew she was being observed.
“I’m
fine, Seven,” Janeway spoke.
“Indeed,”
Seven replied still not convinced.
Janeway
sighed not really wanting to explain her change in attitude. “Truly. I feel
much better. I spent the afternoon reflecting on my current situation. I still
possess a certain amount of anger, but then who wouldn’t if found in my
position.”
“I see,”
Seven allowed. “Then perhaps you would permit me to escort you to the mess hall
for dinner?”
Janeway
stopped her self from reacting. Perhaps the anger she possessed still sat a
little to close to her emotional edge. “What will that accomplish?” she asked
instead.
“You
would learn to feel comfortable with your self and your crew,” Seven responded.
“As well as filling your nutritional requirement for this evening.”
“Would it
do me any good to argue either point?” Janeway questioned with a smile half
playing on her face. Seven stepped directly in front of Janeway grabbing her
hands she pulled her up. As she looked down into the face of Kathryn Janeway
she felt a sudden sensation course through her and filed it quickly away in her
eidetic memory. She let go Janeway’s hands and stepped back. “ I guess not,”
Kathryn answered herself.
“Well
I’ll be damned!” Exclaimed B’Elanna Torres, Voyager’s Chief Engineer as Seven
escorted Captain Janeway into the mess hall.
“What?!”
Questioned Tom Paris as he whipped around to see what B’Elanna was looking at.
“Wow!”
“Leave it
to the ice queen to do what no other could.” B’Elanna spoke curtly.
“You’re
just jealous,” Tom Paris remarked looking at his current lover.
B’Elanna
looked at Tom as if she wanted to rip his head off. Acquiescence was written
across his face and then he got a bright idea, stood and motioned for Seven to
bring the Captain over. When he turned back around B’Elanna was growling at
him.
“Oh give
me a break Lanna!” He retorted, “It’s for the Captain.” But before she could
respond their invited guests had arrived.
“Mr.
Paris, B’Elanna Torres,” Seven greeted as she pulled out a chair for the Captain
to sit in. Then promptly walked around the table and sat also.
“Captain! It is good to see you!” Tom remarked with the biggest smile on his
face.
“It’s
good to hear your voice, Lieutenant,” Janeway replied.
“Captain,
how are you – feeling?” asked B’Elanna tentatively.
“Much
better, B’Elanna, thank you,” the Captain answered and she felt across the
table in the direction of the Klingon’s voice and found her hand. “I’d like to
apologize, if I may, for my behavior over the last few weeks.”
“No
apology necessary, Captain,” B’Elanna replied, “I’d have been just as gnarly.”
“Gnarly,
huh?” Janeway chuckled.
“Quite.”
B’Elanna added and then she spoke to Seven. “How did you manage this?”
“By
limiting her choices down to two,” Seven replied. “The Captain made a good
choice.”
“I see.”
B’Elanna responded impressed regardless of how she felt about the ex-borg.
“So
Captain,” Tom Paris spoke wanting to move the conversation on, “should we expect
to see you back on the bridge soon?”
The
question took Janeway by surprise, as she had not thought there would be a
purpose served by her being on the bridge and blind. “Where as you may see me
on the bridge, Lieutenant, I doubt that I shall see you,” she quipped.
Tom’s
cheeks turned red as he realized what he had said. “I’m sorry, Captain.”
“No
need,” Janeway answered back apologetic in her own reply.
“Captain,
I am going to find something palatable to consume. Can I get you something?”
Seven spoke up.
“If you
don’t mind?” The Captain asked quite content to stay put for a while.
“Good
luck!” B’Elanna laughed, “Neelix came up a little short on palatable today.”
As Seven
stood from her chair she looked from B’Elanna’s plate to Tom’s. “I shall
endeavor to find - something. She spoke but the look on her face read
hopelessness as she left the table.
“Is there
anything you need, Captain?” B’Elanna asked.
Janeway
chuckled as she answered with a question, “You have to ask?”
“At least
you seem to be humored now,” the Klingon replied.
“The
humor seems to keep me from being – gnarly. And I have found that Seven tends
to be a little less restrictive to my wants when I am better behaved.” The
Captain alluded. They continued to talk even after Seven had come back with
their dinners. Neelix eventually made his way over to their table upon Seven’s
insistence, where he also received an apology of sorts from the Captain. After
dinner the Captain and Seven walked several decks to offset their meal then
found their way back to the Captain’s quarters.
“Would
you mind fixing me a cup of coffee?” the Captain asked as she found herself
standing in front of her sofa. “And of course if there is something you would
like.”
“I require
nothing, Captain, but will fix you your request,” Seven replied as she walked to
the replicator. She replicated the coffee and returned to where Janeway now
sat.
The
Captain patted the seat next to her on the sofa. “Please sit?”
“I –,“
Seven started but was interrupted.
“Really,
sit.” The Captain commanded and Seven sat promptly. They sat for a couple
minutes in silence before Kathryn Janeway spoke. “You know, Seven. I am most
appreciative for your assistance today.”
“It was
merely part of my responsibilities,” Seven stated.
“No, it
was more than that. You could have walked away from this as everyone else did,”
Janeway commented.
“That
would have indicated failure,” Seven responded. “That was not an option.”
Janeway
laughed quietly at this. “Yes, I doubt it was.” She sensed the young woman
sitting next to her looking at her. Feelings from earlier in the day surfaced
suddenly. An overwhelming need to reach out rushed her. She wanted to see the
face that looked in her direction, if not see it, then touch it. How could one
sense not working drive the others to overworking she pondered to herself.
Seven
identified that the Captain’s respiration had heightened, that her body
temperature rose. And as she watched the Captain’s face she saw a different
need than earlier written on it. It was something that was inviting in an
unspoken way. Without any warning her emotions seemed to compel her, wanting to
move her toward her captain. Was it the look? Was it the smell? They all
raced through her being and she stood up from the sofa not understanding what
was happening. It made no sense. Human physiology was at best a mystery.
Somehow and for some reason her body sensors went into hyper drive. The EMH
could perhaps treat this in some way.
“Seven?”
Kathryn Janeway questioned with concern wondering why the young woman jumped
up. She reached out and found a hand taking it into her own. “Tell me. What’s
wrong?”
“I do not
know.” Seven responded trying desperately to focus on where her malfunction
might be. She had no idea why she suddenly felt weak in the knees or why her
heart pumped blood at such a rate her head spun. She knew she needed help, but
what kind of help that was she was unsure. Seven pulled Kathryn Janeway to her
feet thinking it to be the answer since she had always helped her before. The
smaller slight woman stood only inches away and as she looked up toward the
6-foot beauty her breath caught.
“I am
not functioning properly. I must go see the doctor.” Seven spoke uneasily.
Janeway
reached up with one hand and softly felt Seven’s cheek. “Captain?” Seven
inquired into Janeway’s tender touch, as it seemed to intensify her
physiological sensations in an unfamiliar way.
“Please,”
Kathryn Janeway rasped quietly and calmingly. She brought her other hand up
slowly to hold Seven’s face, “just Kathryn.” And she pulled the face down to
her gently. Oh so gently and kissed her.
It ended before
Seven could even respond and respond was what her senses willed her to do. She
looked down at the woman in front of her and started putting this new emotional
puzzle together quickly. When the last piece was set into place Seven lay her
hands on Kathryn Janeway’s shoulders, pulling them gradually together. Her lips
found Kathryn’s tenderly at first then turning into a feverish need by both
women. Their hands wandering hurriedly about each other, pulling at clothes
looking for any place to rest, just any place to feel, needing physical
contact. Needing… Needing… Needing to breathe Kathryn broke away from the
kiss. She whispered, “I want so desperately to see you.”
Seven opened
her eyes looking deep into the darkened eyes that peered back seeing nothing
else except blind desire. She closed her eyes then, brought her hands to the
face in front of her tracing her features with her fingers. Committing it all
to her eidetic memory and replied. “I want to see you the way you see me.”
This brought a
sound from deep inside of Kathryn, a release of sorts. She replied her voice
husky with need, “My bedroom.” Was all she managed to get out before Seven had
lifted her and she drew her arms around this woman’s neck searching the air
around her for the lips, those pouty lips until she found them, kissing them
quickening it along tongue begging for entrance then forcing it’s way through
without being stopped. She felt herself being lowered slowly, lowered lips
still connected. As they stood joined Seven reached back to unfasten the
unitard and it fell away. Kathryn’s hands felt around Seven’s shoulders,
caressing… memorizing… unhurriedly down her arms… slowly… feeling… slowly,
moving her fingers down to her breasts using her touch as her sight.
Seven
shuddered as fingers circled her dark areolas then rolling her nipples lightly
between experienced fingers. With a sharp intake of breath she threw her head
back and a moan from someplace deep within escaped, she felt wetness down her
leg. Never once opening her eyes to question what was happening to her. She
had the sexual experiences of many species within her eidetic memory to draw
from; any questions she might have would have to wait until later… much later.
Captain
Kathryn Janeway knew she did not need sight to get to where she wanted. Kathryn
Janeway knew that she needed no assistance to get what she desired. All of this
would be accomplished on her own she thought as her right hand left Seven’s
breast trailing down the lean body before her. Her hand stopped to caress an
implant rough metal against her skin it only served to drive her further in
pursuit. “Seven,” she spoke her voice leaden with desire, “please – undress
me.” It was a command dripping from need that was not readily obeyed. Janeway
leaned into Seven taking her nipple between her lips letting her tongue play.
Seven’s knees buckled slightly. Kathryn chuckled and continued to let her
tongue play.
Seven
begged, “K-Kathryn . . .”
“If you
want off your feet, undress me.” Kathryn commanded. Who was captain? Who was
Borg? This time the command was met with compliance. Seven reached up and
started to unbutton the blouse Janeway wore. These are inefficient she thought
after the third button and with a slight jerk the last 9 buttons scattered
across the bedroom and the blouse being pushed down Kathryn’s arms now laid upon
the floor. The lace bra followed as well as the pants. They stood now, both
trembling with anticipation.
“I must
sit.” Seven spoke her knees going weak. Kathryn brought her hands up to
Seven’s waist, turned her then moved her backwards onto the bed. Seven scooted
back as Kathryn started her ascent kissing every inch of her delicious body
starting with her toes then slowly up her long legs. When she reached her
thighs she could smell her scent and her desire heightened as she nipped the
rest of the way lingering only shortly where she longed to be. Kisses… kissing…
nibbling until she came to Seven’s breast. Taking one into her mouth feeling
the nipple grow and harden then letting it go and moving on to the other.
Kisses… kissing… nibbling then until she reached her lips. She sucked on the
bottom lip then moved up and covered them both. She kissed her slowly… slower…
deeper, parting the lips beneath hers with the gentleness of her tongue, feeling
Seven respond. Hands tangled in her hair, stroking slowly, and then touching
her cheeks. Running her hands over Seven’s body feeling the heat her body was
giving off, stroking her, sliding over her then down the outside of her thigh as
Seven shuddered under her touch.
She reached
Seven's inner thighs which gave way to the damp heat of readiness, Kathryn’s
fingers descending into the moistness there, moving inside to stroke the
throbbing pearl that was sensitive to her touch, making Seven cry out, then gasp
for breath as Kathryn fondled her, stroking… slowly… swirling her fingers gently
around the little gem in a motion that had Seven arching, pushing against this
woman who was taking her. Seven’s legs fell open to Kathryn allowing a more
intimate contact where she found the warm opening, circling it slowly… teasing…
desiring she listened intently to Seven's unyielding moans, then with love, she
entered her oh so gently… caringly… knowing no one else had ever been granted
such luxury.
Kathryn
could feel the sudden embrace of her fingers, resisting briefly and she slowed.
“Seven,” she asked. “Do you want me to stop?”
“No …
please …,” Seven answered breathlessly insistent… lost.
Then having
been granted some right of passage Kathryn began again. Being able to touch
this woman so warmly, so deeply that she felt surely they would fuse. She
flexed her fingers gently, feeling for what would give Seven the ultimate in
ecstasy, finding it with sensitive fingers that circled and caressed, creating a
rhythm that sent waves of desire through this young woman. She felt Seven
arching passionately beneath her as she touched and stroked until finally, Seven
tensed with every muscle in her body, a cry from her that was nothing short of
love or passion.
When the
ripples subsided Kathryn had not withdrawn her fingers. Instead, she sought out
Seven’s lips brushing them with her own, then kissing her until her breathing
seemed to come more evenly. Seven was starting to become aware of who was
laying on top of her, of who was holding her, gently… very softly… kissing her.
“Kathryn,” she whispered as tears pooled. “I do not know what to say. I do not
know what just happened.”
“Yes, I
know.” Kathryn smiled as she brushed her fingers smoothly against her cheek
feeling the tears, which she gently wiped away. “You’re okay.” Kathryn hugged
her then and kissed her again tenderly.
Seven lay
still then as she tried to assimilate all that had just happened, finally
deciding to just enjoy these moments of what she thought must be total
contentment. She ran her fingers up and down Kathryn’s back lightly scratching,
pleased that the smaller woman had found comfort in her embrace. As she
scratched she became aware that Kathryn’s respiration was increasing, that her
nipples had hardened. Seven slid her knee up between her legs feeling the heat;
the wetness and desire reared its head once again. She wanted very much to give
back to Kathryn what she had just received.
“Kathryn,” she spoke. “I’m not sure I know how to do the same for you.”
“Oh,” Janeway
chuckled as she rolled them over. “ I’m sure you can come up with something.”
Epilogue
Seven was
still asleep as Kathryn Janeway stirred. A smile playing across her face as the
thoughts from their previous evening danced through her mind. She opened her
eyes to the grayness and felt the pall of her blindness once again. Only as she
looked around it was not the same blackness as yesterday. It was gray; it was
definitely gray there was light! She sat up in the bed and looked toward the
shadow of the sleeping beauty that lay next to her. Her heart leaped in
excitement and she brought her hands to her smiling lips.
“Kathryn?” Seven now stirred, peering threw lidded eyes. “Are you alright?”
“I’m fine
actually,” Janeway answered. “I believe I’m starting to see again.”
Seven sat
up now totally awake with concern on her face. She looked into Kathryn’s eyes.
“We should go to sick bay at once,” she spoke.
“No… no
not just yet,” Janeway answered huskily as she pushed Seven back down running
her hand over her breasts.
“Kathryn?” Seven spoke startled. “You have something else in mind?”
“Yes… yes I sure do,” was her husky timbre answer as she lowered her mouth to Seven’s chuckling to herself that if she could get this much of her sight back from one night what would the day bring.