by Qzeebrella
***1. Breeze The warm summer's breeze caresses my cheek as I try not to think about Seven. Having come here in an effort to distract myself from all thoughts of her. But the bluebells remind me of her eyes, of how clear and compelling they are to me. I take a sip of water in the hopes I can focus on it, instead of her, but it does not help at all. For the squeeze of lemon in makes me wonder how she would taste. Would she be refreshing or as addictive as coffee? I may never know and that saddens me. (100 words)
*** 2. Reflection Thoughts of Seven taunt me, even here in he holodeck. I just can not stop myself from wondering if I have a chance and then reprimanding myself for thinking it. She is still so innocent in many ways. So new to being an individual and to being free. And I ... I am likely only a mother figure to her. I should settle for that. I should be happy that I have earned her respect and friendship. I should stop wishing for more, but I can't. Her innocence and inner strength draw me in like a moth to a flame. (100 words)
*** 3. Fascination There is just so much about her that I find appealing. Her formidable intellect, her determination, her no nonsense attitude and her refusal to back down when someone challenges her. Though I have to admit that last one irritates me too. Especially when she's challenging one of my decisions or questioning my judgement. Yet her ability to stay strong, to hold her ground as she challenges me, intrigues me too. For it shows how passionate she can become. Which tempts me with thoughts of how explosive a combination we could be together. Of how wonderfully electric our relationship could be. (100 words)
*** 4. Embrace There are times when Seven's eyes are so haunted. Almost as if she is remembering all the terrible, reprehensible, and violent things she was forced to do as a Borg and just can not help but hurt deeply over it. I yearn to take her in my arms during these moments. To offer her comfort and to reassure her that she is safe now. To tell her that I care deeply for her and will do all I can to help her through it, should she let me. But I resist somehow. But oh, how it hurts to resist. (99 words)
*** 5. Boundaries There are so many boundaries in between me and any possible relationship with Seven. Being the Captain is just one of them. Now I'm used to pushing the limits and I have sometimes ignored them in order to attain what I want. I would not be a Starfleet Captain if I did not know when to push the boundaries. But I'm not sure this one is one I should push. Everything in me longs to, but part of me is convinced this is one of those lines I should never cross. That if I did, I would regret it, eventually. (100 words)
*** 6. Advantage My father used to tell me, "Katy, if you don't respect yourself, you can't expect your crew to." Those words echo in my mind now as I wonder if I could keep respecting myself should I pursue Seven of Nine. I think I could. Even in the face of having to bend one of the regulations to the point of breaking. Though I'm tempted, I can't help but remember that the regulations are there to prevent a Captain from abusing his or her power in order to take advantage of one of the crew. And I would be taking advantage. (100 words)
*** 7. Temptation I look up to see a raven flying by. I suddenly wonder if I can bare to sit back and do nothing. I don't think I can. It goes against every impulse that I have. I am used to going after what I want. So much so that I just don't think I can just sit back and do nothing, when faced with such temptation. Everything about Seven draws me to her. Her vulnerability, her strength of spirit, her brutal honesty and her looks. Oh God, her looks! She's drop dead gorgeous and does not seem to know it. (99 words)
*** 8. Contemplation I came here to try to talk myself out of approaching Seven and I seem to have talked myself into it instead. Which leaves me with the dilemma of how to approach her. I need to be clear that I want a romantic relationship, without putting her on the spot and making her think she has to. I need to be sure she knows that she is allowed to refuse if she is not ready for one or just not interested. I don't want her to feel obligated. I want her to want me as much as I want her. (100 words)
*** 9. Decision I smile as a butterfly lands nearby, knowing that I have reached the right decision. I need to know if she can see me as more than just her Captain. I need to know if she cares for me, if she longs to hold me, or if she'd rather be left alone. Either way, I'll be able to put it behind me when I know. I will either learn how to accept that she does not care for me. Or I will be free to pursue her openly. To do all I can to show her how much I care. (100 words)
*** 10. Approach I usually know how to approach any given situation that I am faced with. Some require me to improvise, others a lot of planning. This one requires a bit of both. I need some sort of idea of what I should say to Seven, yet I also need to be able to adjust my approach, should the need arise. I sigh as I wonder if I'm over analyzing the situation. After all, I have approached others in the past to see if they would be interested in me. But it's never been as important to me that they say yes. (100 words)
*** 11. Arrival I stand, fully aware that I am about to take a very important first step. I'm risking a lot here, but no matter what she says, the risk will be worth it. I step out of the holodeck and head towards Seven's regeneration chamber, knowing that she is most likely there. I arrive and take a deep breath before entering, so as to gather my courage. I go through the door and see her pacing. She stops when she sees me and smiles slightly, her eyes lighting up with pleasure at seeing me. Now I know that she wants me too. (101 words)
*** 12. Connection I touch her hand as we talk, needing that connection. We slowly weave through our conversation as if neither of us dares to take the risk of a misunderstanding. Our eyes meet often as we flirt. To be here with her now makes my heart fill with joy. Her eyes light up with amusement as I tell her about something that happened when I was a cadet. I chuckle as she tells me about an ongoing prank war between Tom and Harry that Tom is currently winning. It makes me so very glad I took the risk and approached her. (100 words)
*** 13. Weave I slowly weave my way through the conversation, uncertain where the boundaries lay. I turn to Seven and brush my fingers against hers, to test the boundaries and she smiles shyly. She takes my fingers in her own for a moment and my heart beats wildly. She looks at me, her eyes full of longing and hope. "Not here." "My place?" "That would be sufficient." She drops my hand and we turn for the door together. We walk along the corridor, our eyes meeting often. Hers full of shy desire. I feel my soul fill with happiness at the sight. (100 words)
*** 14. Revelation I speak and walk lightly as we walk towards my quarters, hoping to make her feel at ease. Each step a revelation, as I listen to her replies. Learning more about her each moment and loving her all the more for her willingness to share with me her thoughts. We step inside my quarters and I turn to her cautiously. Suddenly flooded with worry that we are going too fast or that I am subtly pressuring her. She takes my hand in hers and I am reassured by the contact. Am touched by the slowly growing love in her eyes. (100 words)
*** 15. Contact Seven's fingers barely caress mine, causing me to gasp. Her lips part slightly as she takes in my reaction. Her thumb rubs against my palm, making me tingle all over. She runs one finger over my wrist and I begin to tremble, overwhelmed by the sensations. I close my hand around hers and look into her eyes and see desire. She reaches out with her hand to trace my features. I open my mouth to urge caution and she lays her fingers upon it just before she kisses me in such a way that I know she is ready for more. (101 words)
*** 16. Kisses Slow, open mouth kisses takes my breath away. My heartbeat quickens under her assault as pleasure overwhelms it. I gasp as she nips at my bottom lip. She torments me with barely there touches to my face, my neck, and my shoulders. The taste of her on my tongue immediately addictive. I can't get enough of her kissing me so I kiss her again and again and again. Her fingers brush against the side of my breast, teasing me. She cups it in her hand and rubs her thumb over my nipple. Making it ache for her and her alone. (100 words)
*** 17. Reach I reach up and unpin Seven's hair, gasping as it tumbled free. She pulls me towards her, bending slightly to kiss me. I held her close, returning her kiss with my right hand in her hair and the left on her hip, trying desperately not to push her too fast. She took control of the kiss, ravaging my mouth with her tongue, her hands all over me. She strips me of my uniform and my control then backed away. I moan with disappointment and she smiles. She reaches up to her zipper and undoes it, watching me as she undresses. (100 words)
*** 18. Privilege I run my hands over Seven's body, murmuring my appreciation as we trade kisses. Part of me astounded at being allowed this privilege. She looks at me with shy desire and I took her hand, leading her to my bed. I lower her onto it, lying beside her and slowly stroke her. Hoping to chase away the nervousness lurking in her eyes. Her fingers graze over me as she looks me over from head to toe, causing me to writhe in anticipation and she grins. She drew me in for a kiss, her hands everywhere as she teases and torments me. (101 words)
*** 19. Exploration I explore her body slowly. Fingers trailing over her skin in an attempt to learn just what sort of touches she liked. Seven moans as I rub her nipples. She shivers as I nuzzle her neck, tilting it to give me more access. She writhes against me when I nip at her ear. Seven purrs as I rub her stomach, growling as she drew me in for a desperate kiss. Each sound thrilling me, making my heart beat faster and my soul take flight. She whimpers as I tease her clit and cries out as I dip one finger inside. (100 words)
*** 20. Stroke Seven clutches at me as I stroke inside her with one finger, pulling me on top of her. I nudge her legs further apart as I kiss my way down her body. Pausing occasionally to taste her skin. Her cries became desperate as I lick her inner thigh. I withdraw my finger from her and suck her juices off of it, savouring her taste. I lick her clit, tormenting it with my tongue as she arches under me. I suck her clit into my mouth rolling it over my tongue. I rejoice as she trembles all over, moaning and frantic. (100 words)
*** 21. Happiness Seven's body begins to quake as I fuck her with my tongue. The bed moving underneath us as she shakes. I lap as quickly as I can as she comes, wanting to catch every drop. I rise up to kiss Seven, allowing her to taste herself on my tongue. Loving the way she sighs softly into the kiss. Seven holds me close as she gasps for breath, her body shivering occasionally. I roll us onto our sides again, facing each other. I could only hope that we could make this last, for I had found happiness here in her arms. (100 words)