ALL THAT I NEED

I call your name as I enter the bathroom. You don't respond. You are singing and playing the music to loud to hear me. I walk to the sink and look in the mirror. I splash some water on my face. I've had a really hard day. My body is tense and feels as tight as a cord. I hate when I let others frustrate me.

Contrary to popular belief, I really don't like to argue. But today at work, it seems it is all I did. Why can't people just do what I tell them the first time? Why does everything have to be a challenge to prove me wrong?

I laugh thinking of my early days with you. Wasn't I just horrid? I wanted so badly to prove myself to you. I must have driven you crazy with my questions. I'm surprised you put up with me. But I'm so glad you did! I can't imagine spending a day without you now. You fill me so.

Today at the height of my frustration, you kept me together. Even though you weren't there, you were with me. I just kept telling myself that soon I would be with you.

You are all I thought of…all I needed. I just wanted to come home and unwind with you.

I splash some water along the back of my neck, trying to cool off. After a few minutes, I turn the water off and dry my face. I hear the sound of your singing again. You're singing one of your favorite songs. You're really belting it out. I smile as I listen. As you sing, I begin to reminisce again. I think of how happy you make my life. How you always seem to be the answer to anything I need, want or desire.

Desire. I leave the sink area of our bathroom and walk toward the sound of your singing. I stop just inside the entranceway to the shower alcove. I stand there and watch you. The frosted outline of your nude body moving in the shower. You're singing and moving to the music. I watch as you move into the water spray, circling your body with your hands as you move.

I smile as I think how embarrassed you'd be to know I'm watching you. But I watch you all the time. I can't help it! It is the closets thing to touching you that I have.

I laugh a little....you would think I was really a pervert if you knew half the things I think about. The things I want to do with you....for you. But sometimes, it is all about what I really want to do to you. Oh what I want to do to you!

You're singing louder…a new song now. I watch you swaying through that frosted glass. I love you so much. I want to share everything with you. So why do I hide my desires from you? Why am I afraid to tell you how much I think of you? How much I want to touch you? Why do I restrain myself? Am I afraid? If you knew how much I really need you, want you, love you, would you disappear? Would it some how become too much....too intense to be real.

I love you so much. I love you more than words can express. I think about the words we've said to each other. How many times we've said we would do anything for the other. I can hear those words replayed, as I watch you through that frosted glass. Ooh what you're doing to me!

My mind wonders back to when we first fell in love. The long nights spent talking about the life we would have together. I laugh. We had no idea. We never saw things this far...not really. At times it was almost like a dream that we feared waking from if we thought about it too hard.

As wonderful as it was, we have more now. Somehow we actually found more than our dreams. I think back to our wedding day. How beautiful you looked. I remember the promises we made. We've been so blessed!

But sometimes I can't help but miss those earlier times we had together. Those wild nights of discovery…filled with overheated sex and our every fantasy just waiting to be explored. I can't help but wonder what it would be like to do that again…to go back in time and start all over. To be less of the good wife and little more the naughty girlfriend!

As I watch your nude form sway through that frosted glass, my heart and body ache for you. I love you so...but I always hold back just a little. I don't want to anymore! I want all of you to know all of me! I watch you as you move to the music.

I unbutton the top button of my shirt. I stop. I look at you again as I choose my next move. I decide…no more hiding.

Fully dressed I move to the shower door. Your back is to me as I enter. Quietly I move closer to you. You start to bend forward as your hands help the water rinse your legs. I move up behind you and push my fully clothed pelvis against your ass. I push you to the shower wall, my cold belt buckle pushing into you. You gasp in surprise…in shock...in fear... no not fear... arousal. I push harder into you...my full body against you.

My hands move to capture your wrists. I push your hands over your head as I rub against you. My hips pushing into you roughly...you gasp...as I continue to push my fully clothed body into your wet naked flesh. I move my lips to your neck and bite you softly. Then once again slightly harder...you whimper as my teeth bite your flesh. My tongue darts out to circle the area red from my biting. You gasp again...your breath coming out in one long breath. It's then that I realize you've been holding your breath since I enter the shower.

I move your hands...and grab both of your wrists in my left hand...freeing my right to do my bidding. Your body stiffens as I pull your wrists higher over your head with my left hand. I move my right hand in front of my still moving hips. I push my hand between my fully clothed body and your wet nude body. My hand, palm down is resting on your soft wet ass, as my hips continue to grind into you. Each time my body pulls away from yours my hand moves slightly lower, until my thrusting hips trap it between our bodies again.

As my hand moves lower, you start a low deep moaning...down deep in the back of you throat. The sound moves upward with each lower movement of my hand. My forehead comes to rest on the back of your neck as I move into your body. I know I have to have you! I need you! I want you! My hips start to move faster as my hand starts it's decent once again. This time it moves faster as my hips pick up speed.

My lips pushed against the back of your neck. My nose and mouth blowing hot breaths of air along your neck. As chills move down your back, my lips and hand follow, moving lower to nuzzle the top of your shoulder. My hand moves lower. The fingers of my left hand are just at the top of your ass now. They glide over you tail bone, as my hips grind into you. You gasp. My nose moves down to nuzzle between your shoulder blades, as my fingers start there decent. Moving down between your ass cheeks...spreading you as I go.

You're moaning louder...it's rising in your throat. My hips grind into you, as my hand moves down in search of my desire. My fingers find the spot between your anus and vagina. My fingers push slightly into you. Tickling the outer area with my index finger. Your body jumps with surprise. My index and middle finger circle your opening and then move up and down. As my fingers touch the rim of your opening....you gasp.

You know what I want! You try to pull your body away from mine. "No!" I say. Your body stiffens.

I push my hips in to you hard this time pushing your naked body into the shower wall. I pull your hands tighter together and stretch them farther over your head. My mouth moves quickly to your left ear. Your right cheek now pressed firmly against the wall of the shower. I bite your ear and you gasp. "Mine!" I say. You make a whimpering sound, as I push your body harder into the shower wall.

You gasp in surprise, as your already hard nipples are pushed into the cold shower tiles. My entire clothed body lays against yours. You can't move unless I move you! You are at my mercy! You are mine to have...to take. And I tell you again…"Mine!"

"Mine" I whisper into your ear as I bite down on the lobe. You whimper a long loud moan. My hand is still between us and my fingers still circle your opening.

I start to move my fingers in a more determined motion. Pushing into your opening a little each time I do. My mouth is on your ear..."Who do you belong to?"

I ask as I bite your lobe again. "Who?" I ask again. Moving my fingers a little faster, you moan louder but still don't answer. I ask again. "Who do you belong to?" Still there is no answer from you, so I stop. As my hips, teeth, lips and fingers still their movements, you whimper a moan of…relief...no not relief ...disappointment.

"Tell me!" I say. "Who do you belong to?" You try to move yourself into me, but you cant. My body has you wedged against the wall. You groan in frustration.

I say again.... "WHO Do You Belong To?" You angrily choke out your reply...frustration in your trembling voice.... "YOU!" And I thrust my fingers into you, long and hard. You scream, as I enter you. Your body falls into mine, as I push into you. My fingers move in and out of you roughly. Not slow or easy...not how I usually love you.

Tonight it's hard and rough...long strokes of lust and need. Each time I push into you are bodies slap together. My clothes wet are so wet that the stick to you body as we move together. And when we move apart, the sensations of my wet clothes being pulled away from you body, cause you to whimper. I pump my fingers harder into you. Your hands stretched high above your head. My teeth biting into your shoulder as my fingers push into you. Your body stretches to fit my fingers as they push hard and deep into you.

Your body starts to tense and I know it's coming. Your need is as great as mine. I realize that now as I frantically push in and out of you. I feel your response…your moaning. No not moaning…Grunting! You're grunting with each movement of my hips grinding into you. I push my fingers into you...pulling out just to the opening and then push back in…over and over again...until my fingers push as deep as they will go. You are so wet! So wonderfully wet!

My fingers are soaked with your juices. I pull them all the way out this time...then thrust them in long and hard...again and again. Push all the way in....then pull all the way out...then I thrust them in hard again. Your body is trembling. I can feel your inner walls closing around my fingers. You're so close. The sound of your moaning is the only thing that can be heard, over the slapping sounds of my soaking wet fingers as they pound into you.

You're trembling so hard and about to lose control. I love it when you're like this. I love that only I get to see you this way. This bare…this open…your body twitching and you're breathing hard and fast. I pull out of you again and this time thrust three fingers into you. Your body jumps with surprise as I enter you. As I push into you, you cry your orgasm. Long and hard you scream my name as you cum.

Your juices run down my fingers and fill my hand. I keep moving inside you...

wanting to milk every last drop from you. As I push my hips into you harder, my own orgasm hits me. I bite your shoulder as I cum, pushing and pumping into you the whole time. I never still my movements, as I scream my release, you orgasm a second time. As your inner walls clamp down against my fingers, only then do they stilling their motion.

We fall to the shower floor together. Your head lying back on my shoulder, as I nuzzle my nose into your neck. Then you move your head around so you can see my face. You look at me with such love as you slowly move your lips to mine. You kiss me. Soft and gentle...kisses of love and devotion. I love the way you feel.

My lust and my frustration are gone! All that is left is my undying love for you. It's then that I realize, you did what you always do. You fill my every need. I kiss you softly and look into your beautiful eyes. The eyes of my one true love and I say, "I love you my Kathryn. Thank you my wife for being all that I need."