No title Part 1

She paced through her ready-room, trying to remember where it all had gone wrong. Was she really such a terrible woman, had she done Seven so much wrong? Last night, after their deep talk, whilst sharing a glass of replicated wine, she had felt so close to her. She was on the brink of confessing her deepest, best-kept secret to Seven. But then, because of something (and she still had no clue what it was, obviously something she had done or said, but what on earth could it have been?) Sevens face had darkened, and she had left the room, without saying another word.
At first she was too surprised to act. She had just sat there, not knowing what had hit her. Than, in an instant, she had risen and followed Seven to her quarters. But, no matter how she begged or pleaded at the door, the answer had been silence, and at last she decided she would go back to her own quarters. And than, this morning, her biggest fear had come true. Chakotay had, as he walked onto the bridge, told her that tonight he would finally have a date with Seven. She had known for a while now that Chakotay had a secret crush on Seven, he had confessed it to her a few weeks back, when he was looking very distracted and she had asked him repeatedly what was wrong. When he had told her the reason, she had had a hard time to keep breathing, but fortunately he had not noticed it, and they had continued their duties as before.


She had tried to find out if perhaps Seven felt the same way about him. In a way she knew it was not fair, because their late-at-night-deep-conversations had become a time for Seven, actually for both of them, where they shared their deepest concerns, secrets. Well, she didn’t exactly share her deepest secret with Seven, but that was solely because she had no clue as to how Seven would respond. And yesterday night, it had felt so good, she had been so close to completely opening up to Seven, but that was all before… before all this.


She felt tears welling up in her eyes, at the thought of Seven and Chakotay sharing dinner, perhaps laughing and teasing, flirting with each other and what would or could lead to… She couldn’t bear the thought of Seven being in the arms of Chakotay. She liked Chakotay, she wished him happiness and love, but not hers, now she had finally come to terms with herself, and realized it was Seven she wanted, Seven who could make her truly happy.
She was not one to cry easily, so she fought her tears back, than took a deep breath and decided that action was required. She was the captain of their ship, she had to follow the protocols, and until now she had always done so. But this was it, this was the moment where she would choose for herself, her own happiness, her future, and she was not ready to give it up anymore for the damn protocols  of Starfleet. She straightened her back and took a seat behind her desk, than pushed her communicator, and said: “Janeway to Seven!”

Part 2

“This is Seven, captain,” was the respond. She swallowed hard by hearing her saying Captain instead of using her first name.

“I want you in the ready-room, Seven,” she spoke sternly, without leaving room for Seven to refuse.
“I will be right there, captain,” spoke Seven, “Seven out.”
 

Only two minutes later she let Seven into her ready-room. “Please take a seat,” she said, struggling to keep her firm attitude.
Seven took a seat and looked at her, Kathryn could not read what it was that Seven thought at this moment.
“I wish you would tell me what I did or say that made you leave my room so abruptly, yesterday, Seven,” she spoke, as if she was in complete control of the situation.
“It was nothing,” was the answer.
“I did not know that a Borg is able to lie as well,” Kathryn said, feeling more hurt than she would want the other to know.
“It is the truth captain,” Seven said again, “You said or did nothing to cause me to leave your quarters.”
“Surely you must know by now, Seven, that leaving someone in the middle of a conversation, without further explanation, can be very hurtful,” Kathryn said. She wanted to have this conversation over with, for she knew she would not be able to keep up her “I am so in control” act much longer.
Was it her imagination, or did she actually see Sevens cheeks flush?
“I did not mean to hurt you, captain,” said Seven.
“Than why leave like that, calling me captain instead of Kathryn, why… why a date with Chakotay?” Kathryn whispered, bowing over her desk, her face close to Seven’s.
Seven closed her eyes, “Why do you care who I date?”
Kathryn took her seat again and kept quiet.
“If that’s all, captain,” Seven said, and she rose to her feet.
“You’re dismissed,” Kathryn said, she could hear the tremble in her own voice.
A second later Seven had disappeared and left Kathryn sitting in her chair, feeling more lonely than ever, more vulnerable.

When she left her ready-room that night, to go to her quarters and try to get some sleep, she heard a noise around the corner. There stood Seven, standing absolutely still, as if in a deep trance. “Seven, are you alright?” She asked concerned, putting her hand on the younger woman’s shoulder. As by a shock, Seven opened her eyes, and did something Kathryn had not expected her to do, ever. She flung herself at the captains shoulders and started sobbing. “There now,” said Kathryn, soothingly, while she stroke the woman gently over her hair, “Is it really that bad?”
“It was,” sobbed Seven, “Oh captain, it was horrible!”
“Why don’t you come with me to my quarters, we will have more privacy over there,” Kathryn said, noticing lt. Paris and Harry Kim looking over to them, whilst passing through the hallway. She gently escorted the woman into her quarters. “Computer seal doors,” she spoke to the computer, to give them all the privacy Seven might need. She helped her sit down on her couch, and realized that at this moment she felt strong. Seven needed her, and she would help her.
“There now,” she said again, while she was getting the woman a drink, “Have a drink and try to relax. It’s a curious thing, but I have never seen a Borg cry before!”
“Borg’s normally don’t cry,” Seven answered, with sobs still in her voice, “But something has changed… I am changing!”
Kathryn smiled tenderly, and stroke the woman’s hair, “Yes you have, Seven. And all for the best, if you don’t mind me saying.”
“I am starting to feel all sorts of emotions nowadays,” Seven spoke quietly, “And I don’t know how to handle them.”
“I assure you, it’s perfectly normal whatever you feel,” Kathryn tried to ease her, “I can understand however, that they might be a little confusing. But if it makes you feel any better, we humans are not able to understand and control our own emotions as well, at times.”
She noticed how tears where welling up in Seven’s eyes again, and placed her hand on her knee. “Why don’t you tell me what is upsetting you so much, Seven?” she asked gently.
The other took a deep breath, closed her eyes for a moment, than opened them and spoke: “It was Chakotay, captain.”
“Please do call me Kathryn,” Kathryn insisted, “And what about Chakotay? I thought you went on a date with him tonight!”
“I did, Kathryn,” Seven responded.
“Than what on earth happened? Did he insult you, treat you wrong?” Kathryn wanted to know. She had not liked the idea of Chakotay taking her Seven out on a date, but she didn’t expect him to treat her in any rude way.
“He did no such thing,” Seven said, whipping the tears of her face, “It was just… at first it was still nice. I mean, we had a good talk, even a laugh, but then, when we ended up in his quarters… I felt so… out of place.”
“You felt out of place?” Kathryn asked breathlessly.
“Yes, in all of a sudden I did not know what I was doing there… and than, than we kissed, he started to undress me. And all I could think of…” she spoke no further.
“Yes?” Kathryn asked.
“All I could think of… was you,” now it was evident that Seven’s cheeks flushed and Kathryn felt her own cheeks flush as well.
“That’s why I did it, that’s why I left you yesterday, Kathryn. I could not handle the way you make me feel,” Seven said, “I decided to go on a date with Chakotay, not to hurt your feelings, but because I thought that would cure whatever I was feeling.”
Kathryn took a deep breath and took the woman in her arms, held her tightly and whispered; “Oh my dear Seven, what you are feeling… I am feeling it as well!”
“You are?” Seven looked up to her and Kathryn had to restrain a smile from appearing on her face, she did not want to appear to be making fun of her Seven now when she was so vulnerable.
“Yes my love, I am in love with you,” she said softly, caressing her hairs and closing her eyes, trying to hold on to the moment. She had hoped, dreamed so long for an opportunity to occur for her to tell Seven her true feelings, and now it felt better than she could have ever imagined. “I think I am in love with you as well, Kathryn,” Seven whispered, “All the while that Chakotay touched me, kissed me, I could only think of you… of how your lips would taste, how your body would taste. How you would look… naked.”
Kathryn laughed, “You are really something, Seven. If I didn’t know you better I would think you were flirting with me!”
“I am Kathryn, I am,” Seven replied, “I think if you would not touch me now, I’d go completely mad!”
“I wouldn’t want to be the reason for your madness,” Kathryn answered smiling, lifted the woman’s face close to hers, “So I see no other solution than to love you Seven, my dear Seven!”
Her lips gently touched Seven’s parting lips, she kissed her, her tongue found Seven’s tongue and their kiss intensified. She moaned as she felt Seven’s hand going around the structure of her face, down to her neck, her shoulders, her breasts… She felt Seven’s mouth in her neck, her tongue teasing her. She loosened herself from their grip and looked into Seven’s deep eyes, “You are so beautiful my darling,” she whispered, “I have waited for this moment for so long!”
She saw Seven close her eyes, shiver all over her body, smiled and put a hand to her cheek, “There now, my love. Don’t get overexcited!”
Seven looked up again and whispered; “Too late I guess…”
Kathryn stood up and walked towards a chair. She took the pins out that where holding her hair neatly together, shook her head and her lips curled up when she said; “And now, my dear Seven, you shall get what you want… what we both want!”
Seven stood up as well, came to her, but she put out her hand in a stop signal, and said, “Just look, my love…” Very slowly she started to take of her clothes, first her uniform, than the shirt she was wearing underneath, till she was solely clothed in her underwear. “More?” She asked, with a naughty look in her eyes.
“Please,” whispered Seven.
Slowly she took of her bra, stepped out of her panties. She walked towards Seven, completely nude, feeling more vulnerable than she had ever done before, and looked her into the eyes, “Do you like what you see?” She asked with a trembling voice.
Seven did not answer with words, but flung her arms around her and kissed her lustful, Kathryn moaned and tried to reach her bed with her hands behind her, trying to locate where she was standing. She felt her knees weaken and was happy to have found the bed at last, or she would surely have fainted onto the floor.
She pulled Seven over her, than rolled on top of the woman and started to undress her, “Surely you didn’t think I would let you keep your clothes on?” she groaned, while she let her hand slide under the woman’s uniform, searching for her full breasts.
“Of course not,” Seven seemed happy to oblige, and was much faster at undressing than Kathryn had been. They kissed, Kathryn felt how she got more wet at the sight of Seven being undressed. She sat on top of Seven, held her hands tight and started kissing the contours of her face, finding her way down, to her neck and her shoulders. Seven squirmed underneath her, she tightened her grip and hungrily demanded for her mouth on hers. Kathryn smiled, loosened herself from the grip, and continued her way down, to Seven’s beautiful full breasts. She gently kissed them, then licked them  and bit softly in a nipple. Seven moaned loudly when she did so, and whilst still holding her hands tight, so she had no option of returning the touches, Kathryn continued her tongue-travel down, to her belly-button, kissing her sometimes, but mostly wetting her with her mouth. She went down with her mouth, kissed her inner-thighs, then let one hand go of Seven’s hand’s and parted the two lips she found there, let her tongue make circles, than slid a finger into her warmth and started to move it. Seven was no longer in control of the situation (had she ever been?) and she started moaning, moving her hips to the rhythm of Kathryn’s tongue and finger. The hand she had free now caressed Kathryn’s hair, she felt her climax coming. At that moment Kathryn felt her tighten around her finger and then shock, as if relieving stress, and completely relaxing…
“Oh Kathryn,” Seven seemed to try to hold on to that moment just a little longer, pulled Kathryn in her arms and kissed her lustful on her mouth, “Oh Kathryn, I love you so much!”
“I love you too,” Kathryn whispered through their kisses, caressed her cheeks and than, “Please don’t ever leave me, Seven. My life would be incomplete without you!”
“I promise,” answered Seven, kissing her again, then she caressed her breasts with her hands, kissed them and bit the nipples. Kathryn moaned again, tried to stay in control of the situation, but it was so hard… Everything started to vanish around her, there was only herself and her beautiful Seven, the one with the soft touch.  They kissed again, she had to feel her body so close to hers, no touch seemed enough. She felt how Seven kissed her at her v, opening her lips with her tongue, than putting her tongue inside her, licking her, sucking, (or was it drinking?) her juices, and than, with a scream, she exploded. A wonderful feeling of love, laziness and satisfaction came over her and she sighed, closed her eyes. She kept floating on that cloud for a little while, still very aware of the places where Seven had kissed her, feeling every spot burn. She let Seven embrace her, kiss her, that was when the tears started coming. In spite of her not being someone who cried easily, she cried, felt the tears wet and burn her cheeks. “It’s a curious thing, actually,” Seven whispered in her ear, “I have never seen you cry before!”
“You make me so happy,” Kathryn smiled at the quote of her own earlier remark, through her tears, took her face in her hands and kissed the lips again and again, “It’s a little overwhelming actually.
I have never felt this way before! I thought I knew what love meant, but it turned out I knew nothing.”
Seven kissed away her tears and whispered;  “It hurts and yet it feels great at the same time! It’s unlike anything I have ever experienced before!”
“Your right, my love,” Kathryn rested her head on the woman’s shoulder, “I wouldn’t want to feel any different now!”
 They closed their eyes and soon the only sound coming from that room, was the steady, regular breathing of the two women asleep curled up in each others arms.

When Kathryn opened her eyes the next morning, she saw Seven still asleep. She smiled and softly kissed the other on her shoulder, then rose to take a shower. She felt more fit then ever, she felt happy, she felt like singing… She hummed a tune when she turned on the water in the shower. There was no need to undress herself, for she was still naked, when, in all of a sudden, she felt two warm hands touch her back, two arms pulling her into a hug from behind. “Seven,” she moaned, as she turned her face around, her lips slightly opened, hungry to be kissed again. “What’s that? Taking a shower?” Seven asked.
“Yes, do you mind?” Kathryn asked, giving her a sort of guilty little smile, “I am sorry I did not wake you up my love, I thought you were vast asleep!”
“I was,” Seven answered, “But when you left the bed, left my arms… I was wide awake again. Mind if I join you?”
“On the contrary,” Kathryn grinned, she pulled the woman into her arms, under the warm water of the shower, kissed her demandingly on her lips. She felt the water fall around them, groaned when Seven pushed her up against the wall, one hand holding her hand and the other finding it’s way down again, she had to bite her lip not to scream when she felt Seven enter one, no two fingers, she moaned again and moved her body, tightened Seven’s hand between her legs. Seven kissed her lustful, this time their lovemaking was a little different from yesterday. Yes, they loved each other, they tried to be soft, but somehow something bigger had come over them and they were so turned on, that lust took over and Kathryn wanted nothing else but to feel Seven everywhere. She did no longer care how or when, she just knew she wanted her, there, at that spot. She was moving her body to the rhythm of Seven’s movements, she moaned, bit softly in the woman’s shoulder to avoid screaming too loud, than climaxed like never before… Seven was kissing her mouth during it, as to damper her screams and moans, she hugged her tightly and seemed to relax completely. “God,” she sighed, holding on to Seven, who was standing in front of her, her hairs wet, having the cutest soaked-kitten-look ever, she touched her face, kissed her mouth, “How about if I screw you now,” she heard herself murmur, wondering where on earth she had learned to talk like that without feeling embarrassed. “Please,” Seven moaned, answered her kisses with a longing for more…